Wake ups

Whenever something big or exciting is about to happen we use the term "wake ups" with the kids. Its our count down system... 3 MORE WAKE UPS and mommy is gone.  Today that is what I told the kids after we finished breakfast. Peighton's response? a NO!!!!! Mom I don't want you to leave for 500 more wake ups! 
Ummmm, break my heart much? 
I took in a deep breath asked God to hold my tears back and was able to talk without a waterfall pouring out of my eyes.  I was very proud of how well I held myself together :) Here is what i said...
You guys are gonna have so much fun while mommy is gone! You get to have Grammy and Nana and Auntie Doodoo come over and play! Isn't that the best? Where I'm gonna be is with little kids like you guys who don't have anyone. You guys have a mommy AND a daddy who love you all SO much! PLUS you have so so much family!! So many people to love and spoil you all. Theses little kids don't have any family. AND guess what? Mommy gets to go love them! For this little bit of time I get to be the mommy they don't have and love them and hug them and tell them that Jesus loves them.  Don't you think that's pretty cool?
In unison... yes mom.

Well glad that's settled. I know that speech was more for myself than it was for the kids. I've been having such a hard time thinking of leaving the kids. Mostly Marek cause I know the other 3 can comprehend what is going on and that I will be coming home. Sometimes my empathy is so overwhelming I can feel their little hearts breaking! Man!!!! I blame it on my genes... this stinking Lusch  blood that runs through my veins
I have been making loads of little videos for Jon and the kids of me just being a dweeb so Jon can play them when I'm gone.  Hoping that will ease their little hearts. Also every morning they will be getting a card from mommy with some sort of fun treat for the day.  It'll be exciting to come home and hear about the fun stuff they do with out me! Especially the roll of bubble wrap I bought and told them to have a early morning dance party on top of it before daddy leaves for work! I have a feeling Jon won't like them all as much as the kids :)
 Well I only have 3 more wake ups so I'm gonna go hang with my babies!!!